Philophobia?

I think I might have a fear of falling, or being, in love. Oddly, if you add a "sy" at the beginning of that phrase and I have acquired the fear of syphilis. I don't think that's my fear though, just an interesting point. I think I also falsify the feelings of love so that I feel less weird, or because it's unfamiliar to me. I overanalyze my life and create and destroy it without ever making an action.